so um yeah

i feel a little weird right now my gf just came over and well it was kinda like a normal day with her over but i dunno we kissed and i feel strange talking about this cause i dont really think i should but i need to so it just made me kinda feel like i wanted to pass out and well for a bit there i think i almost did but im fine she just makes me soooooo flustered that i dont breath or speak and i kinda turn bright red and then i dont think like at all like not a single thing goes through my brain witch is weird cuz well if any thing my real problem is i always am thinking analizing and stratagizing it may not be on usefull things but always my brain dosent shut off thats why i dont sleep much i think but i dunno i couldnt think for the life of me yeah i felt really like i wanted to screem but not like a bad thing just due to my awkwardness so yeah i dont know i hope she didnt notice what ever im tired gunna go to bed now thinkin i might use this in a story idea make it feel more realisic and all that shit as always i apoligize for waisting your time thanx for reading any ways g'night and ill post later

i cant remember now

so today at luch one of my friends said some thing raunchy and he said i should put that on my sex blog but i dont have onr of those so i was gunna put it here cause im a rebel like that buut i forgot what he said now so now im just typeing about that i had a good day today i stayed after skull to go to drama club but mobe forgot so we couldnt go then we were gunna go to hursts room but that didnt work out either so we ended up just hanging out in the art wing messing around and that was fun and then i helped my girlfriend with her math homework witch was goo and she got all her questions right so i said i would get her a prize but... i have no clue wht to get her so i kinda am just stuck like this i kinda wanna make a certisicate that says 'your good at math' or some shit like that i think it would be funny but i dunno thats what i got da dot dot dot question mark as my good friend yaoi would say yeah okays thats all i got for you guys for now maybe more next time when i have moor of a life oh wait i know i got asked out to tolo twice one by you guessed it my girlfriend and once by a friend i sit next to on the bus it was kinda funny she was all worried about it but i just told her i was going with sarah and she laughed at her self kinda nice okays yeah now im done

so yeah

i dont really have much to talk about but my therapist (a friend from school) said that if blogging was working i should do it more often and if i didnt knoe if it was working then do it more often and well now i have more easly accessable internets well im gunna take her advise so yeah lifes goin okay ive started writing again and its goin pretty good im also looking for a good monologue cause im trying out for a school play not that it really matters cause well im not going to get a part and as much as i want one i dont think i can handel it my final in drama is coiming up soon its in like two weeks and i have to be ready for it ive got most of my lines down and when our teacher went over our parts and fixed every ones problems he barely had to speak to me so i guess thats a good thing and i am the lead role and i get to sit in the audence so the stage fright will be a bit less that usual i think ill be allright but who really knows and all my friends are coming and its funny as hell and i for the most part like the cast im with there are by far to many preps but there are always too many preps in any thing i happen to do in school so i had to get over that me and the super jock football player have a few issues but im taking the high road and am by far a better student and actor than him and well honestly i dont care how big and strong he is im smarter and could kick his ass if i had to but thats just my ego talking but for the most part im haveing a lot of fun and this post about me having nothing to say has turned in to a ramble about my drama class well thats life for you i guess sorry to waist your time with this nonsence