my journal

some one once told me that i would sleep better if i wrote a diary well i never really got that into it. not really my thing writing about things that just happend in a book no one can read. so ive decided this blog is going to be my diary no one i know reads it so i might as well write about all the shit in my life here. so here it goes.

last night i kinda had a break through durring my dream. i was getting married to this girl who i had no chance in getting in hell and ive had a crush on her sence 7th grade and we were getting married i should have been extactic but i wasnt. i didnt really like this girl i liked the idea of her shes nice and pretty and fun to be around but i never really wanted to be with her. i just likes the idea of me being able to change her to be with me. so at that moment in my dream i turned around and saw all of my friends standing there and they were all so happy for me i realized they were the people i wanted to marry. metaforicly of coarse. then there was just one problem there was some one missing sarah or my nerd, wasnt there and i realized she was the person i really had the crush on i just hid from it because she was dateing on of my friends. well shes single now and ive decided to make my move not immeadtly but soon. now one of my friends says i dont have a chance that she only sees me as a friend but any time i hear that i just think of when sarah told me that if she wasnt taken shed totally date me. now she might have been joking but im an optomist so i thhink i still might have a chance now i know for sure that i want to spend more time with her because any time she calls or texts i stop every thing just to listen to herhomework ignore family ignore food ignore sarah full attention
so there you have invisible people who will never read my blog here you go i just opeaned up my heart to a computer and put all of this information into the interwebs with full security that no one will ever read this because no one knows it exisits other than my sister who never looks at it so great i have no followers and a half a millon words to never be read welcome to the life of poe.